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We had some people over last night that Eric has met through work. It was pretty much a horrible, terrible night.  I was placed in a situation that I've never been in before and I did not respond in the way I should have.  There is a line between open hospitality and holding true to my values and faith.  That line was crossed last night.  I don't really have the energy to go into the details in this blog.  
We are alone in a true mission field.  The biggest thing God showed me through our assessment in June was that we need a team.  We need other people who are committed to this neighborhood and ready to establish a Christ-centered community with us.  I really don't feel like we can put ourselves in the situation we were in last night again without other believers who have decided to commit themselves to forming a church with us.   The need for a team was magnified last night.
Another lesson learned last night, the need to fast and pray.  I prayed more intensely last night than I have in a long time.  Not only do I need to pray and fast for our vision, but I need a commitment from many others to pray and fast with us.  God has called us to something that we can not do in our own strength.  We will fail on our own, for certain.  This is also something I learned at assessment that I am now taking more seriously after last night.  I guess I learned a lot more at assessment than I realized.
I'm still really shocked and overwhelmed this morning, and somewhat depressed.  But, I have a feeling that I will look back on last night as a landmark on our journey in Grandview.  God got my attention, it wasn't very fun, but He got my attention.  I have a serious responsibility to pray for our home, our community, and for other believers to join us who have the same vision.