blogger mom

I woke up this morning tired and feeling a little heavy emotionally. Last night some friends reminded me of these words:

Lord, You have always given bread for the coming day;
and though I am poor,
today I believe.
Lord, You have always given strength for the coming day;
and though I am weak,
today I believe.
Lord, You have always given peace for the coming day;
and though of anxious heart,
today I believe.
Lord, You have always kept me safe in trial,
and now, tried as I am,
today I believe.
Lord, You have always marked the road for the coming day;
and though it may be hidden,
today I believe.
Lord, You have always lightened this darkness of mine;
and though the night it is here,
today I believe.
Lord, You have always spoken when time was ripe;
and though you be silent now,
today I believe.

Last night I explained to them that although I believe those words, and although God has proven to me that those words are true throughout my life, right now I don't want to live by faith. I want a plan, I want security, and I hate that I want that right now. And then this morning I checked a friend's blog to find that their baby is healthy and growing. God has put their fears to rest and they have heard their baby's heartbeat. God is faithful and so much in life is more precious then a security plan. So I start this day believing the prayer written above, actually I'm clinging to those words today and praying for the faith to live there.